chapter 1

A beautiful empreayan jade was sitting in front of the mirror clad in a red Saree in the Bengali way, her most important or should I say that the most expensive jewellery was missing, her smile was missing.

If you people were thinking that jahnvi was always like this then wait a second let me correct you she was a bundle of joy, her only in life was to become a successful psychiatrist, and yeah also getting married to sammeer singhania . 

But was it that easy? 

Today while sitting in front of the mirror and applying the last touches of her make up jahnvi was taken back to the past.

The beautiful past that had created and etched a lot of memories in her heart, and also the horrifying past that had made her realise the true nature of human beings.The nature that was always hidden under a facade of their manliness the facade of their beauty. 

In college jahnvi was the topper and as well as miss nerd, she hated attention but was it really her fault that she hated attention?

No it wasn't circumstances had made jahnvi the girl that she is today she wasn't always like this. She was a carefree girl who loved to spread joy, happiness and always used to carry an aura of positivity around her. 

Today sitting in front of the mirror reminiscing those beautiful days jahnvi questioned her reflection in the mirror. 

"why am I so unlucky? Jisse pyaar kiya usne kabhi vishwaas nehi kiya, jisko bhai manti this ussne mujhe khud Se mujhe nafrat Karna sikhaya, jisko behen mana tha ussne mujhse mera pyaar chin liya, *taking a deep breathe and wiping of her tears she chuckled sarcastically* what else do I want from life it has already given me everything. I am getting married today sammeer and you are not my groom and look at the irony who is my groom *chuckling* none other that Shiv, tumhara yaar. What should be do sammeer should I still wait for you or marry him for my parents happiness? Will you ever return back to me? Please just explain me something what was my fault in the whole of this? The fact that I had fallen in love with such an insecure Morron who didn't even know the meaning of love and trust, you said that you trusted me more than yourself then where was that trust sammeer when I had come to you desperately pleading that I am not guilty? What was my fault if I had chosen a filthy piece of Shit to be my brother who himself used to lust me and was a curse on the name of a brother. What was my fault if I had loved my sister a little more than myself and was willing to sacrifice you for her? Well I just hope that sammeer you are happy in your life and please forget me and move on" 

"she tried to tell him how she felt, for how many hours she cried her heart out, but he just ignored her and left"

saying this she wiped her tears looked towards the window and only hoped for him to come, wait for him to change her destiny and love her like its the last time. 

"some say it's painful to wait for someone, some say it's painful to forget someone, but the worst pain comes when you don't know whether to wait or forget"

"I hurt myself today

To see if I still feel

I focus on the pain

The only thing that's real

Jahnvi wore her jewelleries slid down her bangles in her hands harshly feeling pain and flinched when they touched her a day old wounds that she had inflicted upon her herself in order to feel pain.

The needle tears a hole

The old familiar sting

Try to kill it all away

But I remember everything

She looks at her reflection in the mirror and thinks of what has her life become, she opens her drawer takes out her depression pills and pops a few of them in her mouth and now the question was that was she suffering from depression or from betrayal?

What have I become

My sweetest friend

Everyone I know

Goes away in the end

She reminded the times they were in college and how happily they used to have fun laugh in joy qnd live in a bubble of fairytale.

And you could have it all

My empire of dirt

I will let you down

I will make you hurt

She swears to herself lf that she will make the bastard Shiv feel the same pain, he will wriggle with pain and she would be laughing.

I wear this crown of thorns

Upon my liars chair

Full of broken thoughts

I cannot repair

She for the last time looks at her room touches her favourite nook and corners looks fondly at the washroom where she used to make him hide when her mom used to knock at the door, she goes to her balcony and sees the ladder still lying there which her used to reach till her room, "haa yaad hain mujhe yaad hain. "

Beneath the stains of time

The feelings disappear

You are someone else

I am still right here

She put the veil on her head sat on the stool, awaiting the final call awaiting her destiny which will decide her future and also help her to rewrite her destiny.

What have I become"

Jahnvi heard a knock on the door and then the twisting of the door knob only to see her parents and her Elder brother standard no there with tears in their eyes.

It was indeed a very emotional time for the chatterjees as the laughter the joy of their mansion would be missing.

"For years, her laughter cheered up the entire house. But, now that she will be gone tomorrow, it is hard to imagine life without her. No matter how strong a person is, this one thought is enough to make every father's heart heavy."

Jahnvi's father slowly went towards her, kissed her on the forehead and then said "even though you are moving into a new home always remember that this home is still your and till the time I am alive never think that now that will be your house and not this, you were always my princess and will continue to remain so. You know I still remember the time when you were born you cried when everyone else held you but when held you you smiled a bewitching smile that lit up my world, you are my princess handing you over someone else feels like handing over a hundred million dollar worth project to a gorilla, *he chuckles admist his tears* you remember when you were a kid and I used to come home from office I would try to skip all the signals as I knew that when you would hears the horns of my car you would come running to the door give me a bear hug and all that happened throughout the day would just melt away. I remember I had driven you to high school prom and had warned everyone to look after you, I will miss you princess you have always been my heart and now when you wouldn't be living here who will kiss me every morning on the cheeks who will wish me sweet goodnight? " saying so he hugged her tightly and cried, it was very emotional sight to watch for Mrs. Chatterjee and Rohan.

"you might never known man's vulnerable place until you see him with his daughter because with her he is capable of more human emotions than he has ever shown."

Jahnvi didn't say anything she just handed a paper to her father that has some words written-

Dear dad, (to my hero),

When I sit back and remember all the countless times that you carried me on your shoulders, I am convinced that the God knew what he/she was doing when the God chose you to be my dad. The one man that always encouraged me to reach for the stars was you. I am thankful for all the things you prepared me for.

Although you were never as vocal as Mommy and never escorted me around from activity to activity, your influence, your quiet yet strong presence was always there. I have now truly realized the true depth and breadth of your presence throughout my life. In you, I see the effortless dedication to care and love I hope you know dad, how blessed I feel to have you in my life! I'm super proud to be your daughter.

No words written on paper can accurately express the love I feel for you. Whenever you lifted me in your strong wide arms and enveloped me in the warmest and tightest hug possible, I knew you were the man I could always take refuge in.

Every time you dropped me off at school and let go of my tightly held hand, I would anticipate for the school to get over so I could hold that hand again. Your never-ending series of jokes made you my Daddy Cool! You have motivated me in every walk of life, be it education, extra-curricular activities or relationships at different stages in my life.

I have no doubt that God took a piece of you to make me for the person I am-a smaller, girlier version of my dad.Your unending belief in my boundless potential empowers me every single day. I can't thank my stars enough for having you in my life. You are and will always be the best gift I got from life. I have no doubt that God took a piece of you to make me for the person I am-a smaller, girlier version of my dad.From traveling and reading to playing and drawing, there isn't a single moment in my life where your guidance hasn't helped me. I have countless father-daughter memories to cherish for a lifetime and I am thankful to you for all those memories. Every minute that we ever spent together is an unforgettable experience. All the memories are thickly embedded within my heart.When I look back at all the beautiful moments I had with you, I know that my life could not have been better. As a dad, you were strong, caring and a man of conviction. I am trying harder to emulate some of your traits so I can set an example of myself too like you did.

Love you more than anything!

Your daughter, jahnvi

After reading it jahnvi's dad left.

Jahnvi's father left and her mother went behind him the only people left wereher brother and she.

For quite some time both the siblings stared at each other. Both of them were replaying all those memories that brought a smile on their faces .

"How the hell do you sum up your sister in three minutes? She's your twin and your polar opposite. She's your constant companion and your competition. She's your best friend and the biggest bitch in the world. She's everything you wish you could be and everything you wish you weren't."

Who is a brother?

For jahnvi Rohan was her guide, her protector, the guy who was her shining armor. For buisness purposes many a times her parents would leave both the siblings at home with the care taker and those were the times when they realized their feelings for each other. The relationship of a brother and sister can also be one of a father and a daughter.when their wasn't there to give jahnvi who was just a toddler then time it was Rohan though a kid himself took up the responsibility. When jahnvi had first gone to school it was rohan who had dropped her though a toddler himself had warned all the guys to stay away from her when he had experienced his first crush it was manasavi whom he had told, his first love and it was also who had Comforted him through all those silent nights when he used to cry to hims lf while going to sleep and she used to make him lie down on her lap caressing his hairs altelling him that first love was always a bitter sweet memory.

The siblings continued staring and after a few minutes that seemed like eternity he came forward took her in his embrace, kissed her forehead to give her the assurance that irrespective of anything took place in their lives he was always going to be there for her. He said, "manasavi,   both you and I know the pain of love, I understand your pain manasavi but please just for once give a chance to this relation, who knows maybe he is the one for you"

"My brother is one of my true heroes. Steady and sober where I am impulsive and emmotional"

After all this he came forward and held her hands, hugged her tightly and then took her to the mandap that would decide her fate, examine the power of his forever and her hamesha, rewrite her destiny.

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"tu safari mera, hain tu hi meri manzil, tere bina guzaara, ae dil hain mushkil"

Sammeer was standing in front of the mirror straightening and fastening the buttons of his sherwani he realized that the color of his sherwani was red her favourite and out of nowhere he suddenly started carressing his hand where he still used to wear their infinity band the band which he had gifted her with promise of forever and she had replied with a sweet hamesha, he suddenly was taken back to the memory lane-

Route e amoire-

One fine day,

Jahnvi and sammeer were talking about their marriage when suddenly jahnvi requested, "sammeer I want our wedding to be the talk of the town, it should be held under the stars and fireflies should decorate the whole venue as in our case you believed in stars and I was fascinated by fireflies, so our marriage should be under the stars and graced by fireflies *making a cute baby face and pouting* okay if not then main mandap Se bhag jaungi"

Sammeer while staring at her angelic face and caressing her hairs "whatever way you wish we will get married in that way only if your want our marriage to be under the stars and graced with fireflies then so be it, Humne toh sirf aapse bepannah aur bedastoor ishq kiya hai, and what did you say bhag jaungi huh! as if I will kidnap you if you're think of any such crazy thing. "

End of route e amoire

Sammeer shouted "aahhh! " the needle had pieced in his hand making him come back from his Land of Dreams where a happily ever after was possible.

"pleasure of love lasts but a moment, pain of love lasts a lifetime"

Sammeer looked out of the window, stared into the open black sky and then said, "jahnvi chatterjee i am getting married today, yes jahnvi aaj meri shaadi hain and look at the coincidence aaj tumhari bhi shaadi hai par main tumhara pati nehi going it's Shiv whom you are marrying. Huh! Never did I ever expect this from you I had always thought that you will be mine, were all your promises fake ?? Jahnvi did my love hold no meaning in your life?? just because I wasn't rich and Shiv was you went on to having sex with him, *chuckling humourlessly* tum soch rahi ho na ki aaj tum aapne pyaar se shaadi karogi par aisa nehi hogs, aaj tumhari shaadi mujhse hogi aur phir main tumhe aisa tarpaunga ki tumhe pyaar Se bhi daar lagge." 

(but the truth was still today he couldn't see her getting married to someone else he couldn't see someone else touching her except for him)

"fikr toh teri aaj bhi hain, bas jikr karne ka haq nehi raha"

Wiping his tears harshly he wore his Pagri and got ready for the final battle, a battle testing his revenge, his batted, his vegenance and her love, her purity,the strength of her her hope. It also tested the power of destiny, the power of fate, the almighty, his forever and her hamesha.

(Shiv and sammeer have to wear the same outfits otherwise I won't be able to show the twist) 

"ishq Sacha wohi jisko koyi manzil milti hi nehi"

Sammeer was about to get out of the room when his mom came in and then as all mothers do hugged him tightly and then touched his face in a loving manner, and then told him, "beta alya is a very nice girl, take care of her always. sameer marriage is an institution based on love, trust, respect. She has done everything for you and I expect you to do the same. Marriage is about becoming a team, you're going to spend the rest of your life learning about each other every now and then,things blow up. But the beauty of marriage is that if you pick the right person and you both love each other then you will find a way to get through it. "

Saying so she left but her words had created a havoc in his heart and a great confusion inhis mind. because he remembered that once even jahnvi had told him before they had started dating and he had questioned her about her thoughts on marriage in return she had given a reply that had changed his thoughts, "sammeer for me marriage is where the roots are deep, the covenant is solid, love is sweet, life is hard and God is good".

Her words still rang in his ears.

He wore his pagri went down the stairs sat on the mandap and waited for his bride to arrive.

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" one of the greatest pain and agony is in being in one sided love with someone"

Shiv was standing on the terrace holding a glass of whiskey in his hands and with all his strength he was trying to crush it and why wouldn't he, yes today he was very happy as he was getting married to jahnvi but on the other hand he was very frustrated too as her heart was still with sammeer, yes sammeer was his brother and he knew that what he had done was not correct but then again he had no option jahnvi was hopelessly in love with sammeer and he with her. 

On their first day of college she had fallen into his arms and after that he didn't know when she had swiped right into his heart.

Jahnvi used to trust him and call him her brother and he knew that she loved sammeer after all he was the first person with whom she shared this news and that had crushed his heart into millions of pieces,pieces that would be impossible to join back again and say that they were as good as new. 

He took a sip of the whiskey looked down from the terace, "Mia I had loved since I had first seen you but you were mad about that douchebag sammeer and me about you. I regret raping you but I had no option If I had not then you would have never gotten married to me but yeah I still miss my brother and my love I am really sorry hope you forgive me though I know I don't deserve any of it. Jahnvi it hurts, it pains right here *pointing towards his heart* when you look at me with those eyes that once held respect, are today accusing, are today only showing hatred towards me. I know what I did wasn't even downright acceptable but I had no fucking choice, please don't hate me jahnvi I wouldn't be able to live with it *saying all this while staring at the night sky*"

Saying so he gulped down the last peg wore his pagri and waited for his life to give him what he deserved, little did he know that his life was going to change today, today he was going to have his heart broken again and no one to join it for him whereas today he would also experience the power of destiny and see the loss of his one sided love a d the triumph of true love. He wore his sword dressed up like a total Punjabi groom and went down to the mandap that would decide his ultimate destiny.

"mohabbat muquadaar hain koyi khwab nehi , yeh wo adda hain jisme har koyi kamiyaab nehi, jisse milti manzil ungliyo pe wo khush hain, magar jo pagal huye unka koyi hisab nehi"

Shiv was in his room and was staring out of the window and he was crying to himself as he knew that today on his wedding day there will be no one to comfort him like a mother, give him qdvice like a father, tease bin like a sister. He had lost his family in a car crash 18years ago and after that his only family was anshuman who is as also not there now. He missed him parents today when he was at his most vulnerable condition he wanted assurance, guidance he seemed comfort.

But then reality struck him hard and he realized that there was no one for him he had to live alone. Life for him was never a bed of roses. He quickly wiped his tears looked at the sky and then said, "mom don't feel bad see I am not crying and today is my marriage yes mumma I am getting hitched today but still I am craving for you, mom I know what I did with manasavi was wrong g but I had no option I still love her like anything but she doesn't even spare a single glance at me as if I am not existent in her world, she is a successful psychiatrist today and whenever I go to meet her at her hospital those beautiful eyes that was once filled with respect are now filled with hatred, the way she stares at me makes me feel bad about myselfmakes me hate myself. I am so sorry mom I couldn't live up to your expectations. And dad I hope your listening today I am a successful rockstar yes dad you always told me not to do music but see me today I am so successful, I have got 5 platinum albums and my music is so famous people call me the Romeo rockstar, if only you ever tried to understand my dreams, my ambitions, me maybe we would be a much happier family, maybe I and you would have better relation, maybe I even if for some moments wouldn't have hated you. Riya sissy I hope you are listening I know you are angry that I took away a girls dignity but please bless me ease don't hate me" saying all this he closed the window wore his page and went down to the mandap to see what fate had in store for him, to know if there was purity and truthfulness in his one sided love.

Shiv sat on the mandap and as the wedding chants began he couldn't wait to see his bride the girl who had stolen his sleep, his breathe, his heart, his body and his soul. Love was never an option for him until she had come and had lit up his life.she made him live his life. And now when the priest said asked the bride to be summoned he heard a collective sigh running in the crowd and as he lifter to eyes only to gaze at an angel descending from heaven, there he saw her coming wearing a red Saree carried by her brother and her father in all her glamour and glory she was indeed the prettiest of all.

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" Meri zindagi mai ek aisa saksh bhi hai yaaron,Jo meri puri zindagi hai aur mai uski ek lamhe main bhi nahi hoon". 
A very pretty barbie doll or should I say the ruler of the fashion world Alya saxena was sitting in front of the mirror wearing the red bangles as after all today was her wedding with her Mr. Perfect like finally after six long years of struggle her only wish, only fantasy was going to come true.

She was very happy and excited today but at the same time she was frustrated or was she guilty.

Frustrated because her love still didn't love her back even after so many futile efforts from her side and that his heart was still with her sister. 

Guilty because it was her fault that these two had to separate but wait wasn't it said that "pyaar ke liye jaan de bhi ja sakti hain, aur di bhi ja sakti hain " 

It pained her when she saw him caressing jahnvi's pictures it hurt her right at the heart when she saw him not eating drinking or touching anything and everything that was his favourite.

But she had no option she had to do all those in order to get back her love, she saw her reflection staring back at her from the mirror, it said, "Alya this is so not you because love is selfish, aap jisse pyaar karte ho na, aap usse kabhi hurt nehi karna chahoge par tumne toh bilkul wohi kiya you have hurt him because he was very happy with jahnvi he is never happy with you stay charm is missing from his eyes his eyes lack that spark which was always there when he was with manasavi you don't love him alya this is just your obsession." 

Hearing all this alya got very angry and she threw s flower vase at her own reflection and the mirror to break into pieces she said or rather screamed, "noooooooooo........ I love him I can do anything for him you are lying" then she looked at her self and said, "alya stop hyperventilating this so not true you are perfect for him and you only love him you are not obsessed with him"

She wiped her tears drank a glass of water and then covered her face with a red veil that showed she was ready for her marriage. She was awaiting her final destiny.

"Just to see that smile

Makes my life worthwhile

To know know know him
Is to love love love him
And I do, and I do, and I do

Why can't he see
How blind can he be
Someday he'll see
That he was meant for me"

Alya was sitting in her room and other the veil on her head on hen her brother came inside the room and then looked at her with warning eyes that screamed terror and said, "aaj teri shaadi hain chori, aaj agar tune koyi neya tmasha ya kuch bhi kiya na toh mujhse bura koyi nehi hoga, finally tu iss ghar se ja rahi hain,aaj lagta hain mere maa baba ke aatmao ko shanti milegi. "

Alya was I tears but still she managed to nod her head and then just to show to the world that they were very happy he and she put up a fake smile on their faces and then went towards the mandap. For him it was peace for her it was getting to finally live her life.

Alya came down sat on the mandap brought by her brother (only for namesake) and while coming she looked at anshuman who was looking the hottest of all. She was made to sit down beside him and as soon as the chants began she realised that her life long dream her only ambition in life was going to come true.