Chapter 8

"maybe I was forever destined to fall in love with people, I couldn't have... "

their lips touched....

shiv and alya, two stars of this vast sky who had been broken, guilty, frustrated and hurt...

the kiss was filled with passion, raw passion, intense passion..

shiv slowly sucked her lower lips while she fervently sucked his upper ones.

Aliya was frustrated as to what was not there in her that was in jahnvi that sammeer chose her?

Shiv was drownining in a pool of guilt as to why did he ever rape her?

But also why didn't she ever love him?

Was he not worthy of it?

Why did everyone they both loved always hated and went against them?

Were they that Bad?

They kissed and then suddenly as if on the cue that had been planned some sense was suddenly knocked into aliya and she pushed Shiv away, and thaappp!!!

She had slapped him.

Aliya saxena had just slapped Shiv chaturvedi.

The slap echoed across the whole room.

Shiv looked at aliya.

Aliya looked at shiv.

Shiv said, "aliya I am so sorry I don't know how this happened, how I lost my control. I am really sorry aliya."

Saying so, Shiv went outside and stood at his balcony.

He stared at the sky.

He felt all of a sudden alone, lonely like none was there with for, for him.

The worst part about lonliness?

Unlike diseases and sickness it doesn't really have a cure the cure from the feeling of rejection, from being an outcast.

He said was shattered.

Yes he knew that his love will be unrequited, she will never love him back and yet this stupid heart still hoped that someday she will love him, someday they will he together.

But alas!

Why doesn't this stupid heart understand that it's not easy it's just not easy.

He had lost.

Sammeer had won.

Jahnvi's hatred for him had won over his love for her.

He had always read, heard that love won against all odds, everytime love won.

But was that just a figment of imagination?

And what he was experiencing right now the truth?

The mirror to his dreams, fantasies?

Aliya stood at her place. She didn't dare move. The broken fragments of the mirror was still there. But refection looked back at her. You know the worst part about reflections they show you things that you never want to see, they show you the reality the mirror to your dreams.

Her reflection just looked at her and that one look conveyed so many feelings.

It told her, "aliya you know what, at this moment I am not sad or angry at you I am just pitying you. What have done to yourself? To your life? Aliya open your eyes and realize this that you and sammeer were never meant to be, and as much as you try things that are not meant to be, never go hand in hand. There is mistake in loving someone but there's fault in loving someone that turns into obsession. There's fault when Love turns dangerous. True love is then when you love someone and yet allow him to leave, Just to let go."

All of us want that one person in our lives who will just be ours, but then reality knocks and tells us that only some people are meant for a forever not all.

Why do we give our hearts to someone?

Why do we fall in love?

Only to be hurt once again?

Only to realize that it's not for me?

Shiv stood there aimlessly, wandering and staring at the night sky. At that moment he felt truly alone.

Andhera tera maine le liya

Mera ujla sitaara tere naam kiya

Atleast before this he lived on hopes, he hoped that someday jahnvi will love him back just the way he loved her. Someday perhaps she would forgive him for a crime he had never committed. He had been blamed by her for raping her, killing her and Shiv's child but only if someone knew the truth.

Knew the fact that it was not him.

Heck he didn't even remember what had happened that night.

He didn't know what he had done.

But all he remembered was that next morning he had woke up to find a naked jahnvi lying next to me clutching the bedsheet tightly to herself and there were marks on her wrists, scratches on her face and limps, imprints on her back.

He found his own face to have the mark of five fingers, his back had scratches of nails indicating force and his chest had signs of blood.

He was shocked.

All he remembered was that night he had gone to a club, had got drunk and then somebody had told him that jahnvi had called him to room number 524.

After that he didn't remember a single thing, all that happened was like a bizzare dream.

Aliya was still comprehending the words spoken by her reflection and finally questioned herself, "was I wrong somewhere? Was Shiv never mine? Have I destroyed 4 lives in this process? Have I lost myself? Has my love turned into obsession? Was I forcing my love on somebody who was never mine? "

So many questions that these two lost souls had and no answer to the same.

Sometimes in life it's good to just let go, to just let life take it's own flow.

Just let go of how you thought life to be, let go of your expectations, dreams, and fantasies and from today try to embrace what life is throwing at you. What you have.

Shiv and alya kissed but does that once kiss change anything?

Change feelings someone had for somebody for years?

Change emotions?

Change our hearts?

Is it so easy to just let go?

Is it so simple to just allow life to take control?

Two souls who have loved and lost, two people who wanted to fall in love and yet got tied to someone else. Two stars who can probably never meet, but will continue shining for each other.

Is that what love is?

Learning to let go?

Trying to gather yourself?

Is love making someone else's happiness more important to you that your own?

Giving someone the power to destroy you?

Let's see where life takes Shiv and aliya, let's see where life finally puts Shiv the guy with a bruised and broken heart that had been captured by her, and where aliya goes as she is still living in the oblivion, illusion that someday he might just turn out to be Her Prince Charming?

Let's see...

let's see now akhir pyaar kya hota hain?

"I will not tell you our love story, because - like all real love stories - it will die with us, as it should."